this will be my very first post after god noes hw long. life has been veri crazy ever since. i realise as i grew older my thinking change n so does my actions. im not the same person i used to be. i dun share my despairs to others like i used to. now i prefer hiding dem.
i decided to build up tis blog again coz i think i cant alwaes keep things to myself. i need to let it out. n the onli place i can do dat is here.
my career life is ok. i like my job. i havent love it yet. but ya i like it. though its veri tiring, time flies veri fast. like adrenaline. n also, i dun have to think abt other unnessary things. like family problems, relationship problems, money problems.
me n danial are goin well i suppose. we do fight yes. but we solve it fast nw. the onli problem is dat the fights grow bigger den the last one. n sometimes it frustrates me wen hes too busy for me. the funny thing is, the planned out days together are alwaes the daes he has someting on at work. its getting annoying.
yes i noe hes not to be blamed. but wat am i suppose to do. i cant lie to myself saying dat i dun feel a thing abt it. wen im burning inside each time it happens.
things like these make me think a lot. n dats not a gd thing. i alwaes feel dat i think to much. im a thinker. n tinkin more makes me sad even more.
tis morning i had a thought, if he has no more time in the world except for family n work time, will he sacrifice his work time (take leave, mc etc.) for me?