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30 AuG 1989
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someting happen yesterdae..

it all started wif him asking me out. coz he wanted 2 buy me the guess wallet i asked 4. i was happy. of coz. im getting the wallet n i also have the chance 2 spend time wif him b4 fasting. he came 2 fetch me at 5.30pm. he told me earlier dat he needed 2 pick up his mom at nite. i noe. but i was expecting it 2 be 7-8pm.

i REALLY didnt expect it 2 be at 6pm. it was rite after he got me the guess wallet. we didnt even had time 2 eat, sit n tok, walk around. none.

it struck me deep wen he said its time 2 go. i felt a sudden blow in my heart. my eyes were warm suddenly n i got the great urge 2 cry. but i try 2 smile. he ask me if im ok. i said yes. n i tried so hard 2 smile. i neva thought smiling wud be so hard til yestedae.

the worse came wen his mom was ther in the car. i felt like running. coz i cant hide my emotions. im not gd at it. i cant face her if she wans 2 tok 2 me. coz she might see my emotions. n i dun wan dat. wen its time 4 me 2 go i TRY HARD 2 gv a smile n say goodbye. but all dat i cud gv is a smile. the goodbye got stuck in my throat. i din expect him 2 msg me saying dat his mom saw my expression n asked me wats wrong.

see, i suck at hiding my emotions. no matter hw much i tried.

all i cud remember is dat i cried immediately wen i reach hm. im not angry. im juz sad. n frustrated. i noe its not his fault. i noe. but im human. i do feel sad. i told him dat i wanted 2 be alone. but he didnt understand. i got pissed. coz he didnt bother 2 understand wat i felt dat dae. i keep wondering..

doesnt my facial expression show anything?
did he not noe dat i was really sad?
did he bother 2 see the situation n hw it makes me feel?

wat i needed is 4 him 2 see all tis n understand. i wasnt angry. i was juz sad. so bad dat i juz wanted 2 be alone 4 a while. but hes juz 2 ignorant 2 understand. 2 ignorant dat he didnt bother 2 see wats goin on.

i wish he knew dat i wud trade dat wallet anytime just 2 spend the time with him. the wallet wasnt my 1st priority of meeting him. i juz wan 2 mit him.

but it doesnt matter now. its too late.